I should have kissed you good-bye anyways....

I should have told you I loved you anyways...

I'm sorry...

Stop.

Stop telling me what to do.

Stop telling me what to feel.

Stop talking to me like I'm some typical teenager.

Stop telling me to plan.

Stop telling me to save.

Stop telling me to do anything at all.

I'm not a screw up.

I know what the hell right and wrong is.

I have a conscience.

I have morals and virtues.

I know when I've crossed lines that shouldn't have been.

And I know damn well when I well within safe lines.

I'm a kid that has been working full-time since his 18th birthday. Months of that while playing two varsity sports and maintaining a 3.7 GPA. All the while, paying my own phone bill, buying my own clothes, paying for my own gas, and now paying my own car insurance. I buy my own food and brush my own teeth. I'm responsible, whether you think a teen can't be is up to you, but keep that to yourself. YOU DON'T KNOW ME!

I don't need people to tell me when something in my life isn't perfect.

I know when things are messed up.

I can fix my own mistakes, right my own wrongs.

I know when to keep my mouth shut and when to stand up for myself.

I'm sick of people not letting me be who the hell I am.

Just stop!

I don't need people in my life telling me where I can and can not sleep.

I know damn well when I'm tired and need to go home.

Stop telling me how I should feel.

Sorry I don't keep in contact with any of my friends back in Muskegon, but I just don't want to.

If you want to talk, then write me.

I don't have time to set aside everyday to try and talk to someone back there.

Be glad I'm not returning your e-mail right now..

I'll drive how ever suits my mood to drive.

If I'm driving too fast, live with it.

If I'm too close to the person in front of me, drive yourself then.

I know about dangers in life.

I don't need you to hold my hand anymore.

I know I need to save money.

I know I need to make money.

But stop acting like I haven't been grateful for everything everyone has done for me.

Anyone who truly knows me, knows I say thanks, and mean it, for everything someone goes out of their way and does for me.

If you feel I don't, it's because you don't know me.

So, stop acting like you do.

I could care less if you think you do.

I could care less if you "know" you do.

But don't come up to me and tel me about my life and act like you know me.

Drinking doesn't do anything for me,.

Neither does smoking.

I am not another teen statistic.

So live your own life and let me live mine. I'll let you know if I need anything from you.

Hmm...


I guess it's about time I wrote a new blog and all, but the reason I haven't is because I don't think I have much to say.

My Thanksgiving went really well. I had a good time with Cheryl and Hannah and, as everyone else did, ate way too much.

Targhee opened a few days ago, and I got up on Sunday with Claire. It wasn't the best snow I've ever had, but for this early in the season, it was alright. I'm looking forward to a lot more snow so I can get some good rides in on my new board.

I've really just been working and hanging around with Claire.

Still haven't been taking as many pictures as I would hope to, but here are a few more of stuff around here. Sorry if you've already seen some of them..

http://s41.photobucket.com/albums/e259/tstew4/Idaho/More%20Idaho/

Looking forward to getting back to Muskegon for a few days!

My mail ordered bride finally arrived the other day. She is even moire beautiful in person. Her smooth surface, and voluptuous curves are absolutely breath-taking. I can't wait to take her out of the package and give her that first long, passionate, heavenly ride up at Grand Targhee...

I was asked today what I wanted to do with my life. And as I gave the usual answer of "I don't know," I felt as though the people I was around looked down on me or my response. Although I know they didn't mean to, they almost made me feel small about what I wanted to do, or in this case not do in life.

We visited Humboldt State University, a college was looking at to attend and play soccer, and I realized that that is not a place I want to go to school. There only real reason I can conjure to defend my decision, is as simple as I felt I didn't fit in.

After almost being pelted with the "truth" that I needed to start planning my life and what I want to do and where I want to go and what I want to study, it hit me.

Why?

Why do I have to plan anything but today?

Why do I have to sit down and pick a career for me, when I don't know what the hell is out there for me to do?!

Why do I have to plan out my life and goals?!

Why the hell can't I just do whatever I feel like doing at any moment in time?!

If I want to travel in life, why can't I?

If I want to play soccer when I'm older, why can't I?!

I think too many people make the mistake of trying too hard to figure out what they want to do in life. Studying too hard to get the degree that will give them a high paying job. But let's look at it, how many high paying jobs are there as opposed to the number of people studying for them?! So, it is inevitable that there will not be enough positions to fills every ones needs. So why not go out and about and find a job that is needed.

Bottom line, the majority of people that push too hard to get the best degrees and try to get jobs that aren't available where they live, are not happy.

You will be disappointed with the outcomes of a number of events in your life if you base them all on one thing, one decision, one degree, on career.

You can't tell me you wouldn't be happier to have a job in a place that you love, that lets you be able to do the things you want to do.

So, after some thoughtful moments, I decided what I really wanted to do in my life...Whatever I want to do.

If I want to go to school, I will.
If I want to play soccer, I will.
If I wan to work, I will.
If I want to travel, I will.
If I want a wife and kids, I will.

I'm going to do whatever I want to do in life. That's it. I don't want to hear anymore advice about where I should go, or how I should get there, or what it takes to be on top. Because in reality, If you are sitting there telling me what to do and how I should do it, it is because you made mistakes in your younger years and you regret where they got you. So, why should I listen to you?!

Let me figure stuff out.
Let me make my own mistakes.
Let me regret what I did or did not do in life.
Let me live my own life.

I'll be okay, I promise.





This isn't directed at anyone or anything. This is just me venting.

Here is Day one and two of the Oregon/California...

WE MADE IT!!

Redwoods=HUGE




Redwood Highway

La Costa

Humboldt State (Disappointed)

I'll put up the next couple days pictures when I get a chance. Right now, we are in a hell hole that goes by the name of Klamath Falls, OR. We are going up to Crater Lake tomorrow and that should be a good time.

Take care,

Tucker

In unrelated news, today marks the beginning of a week long adventure. I am on my way to go visit Lenny with Dave for about a week. It should be a good time. Granted, I don't know how it could not be a good time when us three get together. I'll make sure to take pictures and share them all with you when I get home, or potentially during the visit as well.

Also, I voted for the first time in my life today. No big deal though.

I'll miss ya, Claire.

I took a hike today, which I wish I have done more of so far since I've been here. I parked the car at the top of the pass and wandered upward until I was at the top. These are the pictures from my digital camera. My film ones will be posted shortly...

I came, I saw, I conquered.

See...

Shack on Top.

So I added my name to a legacy..

The grand.

'Bout a third of the way up

The terrorists have won...

View from the Top (of the world?)