I was asked today what I wanted to do with my life. And as I gave the usual answer of "I don't know," I felt as though the people I was around looked down on me or my response. Although I know they didn't mean to, they almost made me feel small about what I wanted to do, or in this case not do in life.

We visited Humboldt State University, a college was looking at to attend and play soccer, and I realized that that is not a place I want to go to school. There only real reason I can conjure to defend my decision, is as simple as I felt I didn't fit in.

After almost being pelted with the "truth" that I needed to start planning my life and what I want to do and where I want to go and what I want to study, it hit me.

Why?

Why do I have to plan anything but today?

Why do I have to sit down and pick a career for me, when I don't know what the hell is out there for me to do?!

Why do I have to plan out my life and goals?!

Why the hell can't I just do whatever I feel like doing at any moment in time?!

If I want to travel in life, why can't I?

If I want to play soccer when I'm older, why can't I?!

I think too many people make the mistake of trying too hard to figure out what they want to do in life. Studying too hard to get the degree that will give them a high paying job. But let's look at it, how many high paying jobs are there as opposed to the number of people studying for them?! So, it is inevitable that there will not be enough positions to fills every ones needs. So why not go out and about and find a job that is needed.

Bottom line, the majority of people that push too hard to get the best degrees and try to get jobs that aren't available where they live, are not happy.

You will be disappointed with the outcomes of a number of events in your life if you base them all on one thing, one decision, one degree, on career.

You can't tell me you wouldn't be happier to have a job in a place that you love, that lets you be able to do the things you want to do.

So, after some thoughtful moments, I decided what I really wanted to do in my life...Whatever I want to do.

If I want to go to school, I will.
If I want to play soccer, I will.
If I wan to work, I will.
If I want to travel, I will.
If I want a wife and kids, I will.

I'm going to do whatever I want to do in life. That's it. I don't want to hear anymore advice about where I should go, or how I should get there, or what it takes to be on top. Because in reality, If you are sitting there telling me what to do and how I should do it, it is because you made mistakes in your younger years and you regret where they got you. So, why should I listen to you?!

Let me figure stuff out.
Let me make my own mistakes.
Let me regret what I did or did not do in life.
Let me live my own life.

I'll be okay, I promise.





This isn't directed at anyone or anything. This is just me venting.